Some reminders from time to time... amp!

Inspired quotes from Sex in the City...

1. 1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
2. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. (Yeah, this is absolutely right. if a man really loves you, he'll do anything, whatever it takes to keep you, or take you back.)
3. 2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. (Girls, don't be this stupid. trust me, i've been there, i've done that.)
4. 4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. (common sense could help)
5. 6. Don't force an attraction.
6. 7. Never live your life for a man before you find
7. what makes you truly happy.
8. 8. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but don't let faith
9. make you stupid.God does things decent and in order.
10. 9. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
11. 10. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
12. 12. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.
13. 13. Always put yourself and your happiness first.
14. 15. If he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested.
15. 17. Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung along.
16. 20. There's more than physical abuse, there's emotional and mental
17. abuse.If he causes any of them...flee. (hell, i'll give em hell and abuse them before they abuse me)
18. 21. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job. (i love him, but i'll treat him as my equal)
19. 22. Demand respect and if he can't give it, he can't have you!
20. 23. Don't compete with other woman, but be aware that men are attracted
21. to what they see.
22. 24. If you think he is cheating, he probably is.Confront him right away and if you feel he's lying, let him go.
23. 25. Never rely on a man for compliments, look to yourself for that.
24. 27. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
25. 28. Just because he says he loves you, doesn't mean that he won't hurt
26. you and it doesn't mean that you are meant to be with him.
27. 30. Know that you deserve to be the number one person in the life of
28. the #1person in your life. ( i would always make sure of this one)
29. 31. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
30. 32. NEVER give more in a relationship than you are getting out of it. (AMEN!)
31. 34. Don't fall for the "I'm not the loving type"...when a man loves you there is nothing in this world
32. (within reason) that he wouldn't do for you. YEah... ;-)
33. 35. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are,and you're always readily available to him he takes it for granted. (In my relationship, we ALWAYS miss each other, it's the other way around..)
34. 36. Provide financially for yourself and don't depend on anyone.
35. 37. Never spoil your man; let him spoil you.
36. 38. When it's time to let go; let go.
37. 39. Good men should be treated like good men. (Good men=DALE)
38. 40. Don't play games. (Yeah, i know...)

Instructions for LIFE (from an e-mail)

i should have read all these a week ago...

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risks.
2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three R's:
-Respect for self
-Respect for others
--Responsibility for all your actions.
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometmes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.
7. When you realize that you've made a mistake, take immediate actions to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone everyday.
9. Open arms to change, but don't let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and look back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.
13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality.
15. Be gentle with the earth.
16. Once a year, go someplace you've never seen before.
17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

i and i

a nice kewl classmate created this one for me, knowing how i love reggae... sweet noh...?

when the circle gets broken

today, i have been going through the whirls and swirls of my currently crazy life. i know i haven't even stopped for a while to clearly see where i'm going (if i'm going back to the path that i ought to take, or still have an extended vacation in my so-called lost-ness.).

as i was walking in circles through the foggy rotonda of my life, JAH suddenly got to me to tell me that i should start thinking about going back to where i should be... dale sent me an sms saying that his ring broke. i mean OUR promise ring got broken. as of now, i still haven't asked him about the details but when i received the news, i touched the silver band around my right ring finger and felt bad that its twin was miles away, struggling to get fixed. could that be a bad sign of the unexpected worse to come?

and i thought the worst was over days ago...

now i know i REALLY should go back to that familiar path and stop being this lost.


i look over my shoulder,
straining my sight to what i passed by
and felt the the trace
of comfort i have eagerly and blindly
left
behind.

i have chosen my champion lifetimes ago
but i went my way and swam in the
murky
waters of
forgetfulness.

i drowned in the word: I
i was deep in the calming waters of my reflections...
so deep in there that
I
forgot
about
you & me...
US.

Now

i'm going back
to where i saw your eyes sparkle,
mirroring mine.

i'm going back
to where i stood up alone
knowing that somewhere unseen
you are standing up for me too.

i'm going back
to that dream where i would share
the beach
the sun
and the songs
with you.

only you.

everyone knows that
if ever
i would
believe in
LOVE,

i would believe in you.

only you.

does he... or doesn't he

i spent most of today ranting and 'almost-whining' about how mixed up my luve-life has been last week. yech!

from the looks of things.. and from the way the people made me finally see those little details i refused to see before.. he really loves me.

and probably, that love is even more than any guy has given me before. of course ang haba haba haba haba ng hair ko, as in!

i like that haba-hair feeling, reminds me of how i felt when i ego-trip. wait, in fact, that haba-hair feeling is a result of my ego-trips. what the hell... okay, i'm egoistic. but at least i make sure my bubble won't burst.

anyone, i'm on the verge of going to him right now, of saying sorry. this thin thread of left-over propriety and this big boulder of pride keeps me from getting out of this room and going to where he is right now.

my mantra: i can't make a fool of myself, i can't make a fool of myself, i can't make a fool of myself...

i hope i have a pack of capri right beside me, and i'm smoking a stick right now. one hand with the stick, the other hand holding--almost hugging-- a caramel frappe with a double shot of espresso.. WOW! that could be as close to heaven as i could be right now, considering the circumstances.

i hope i could survive today without me feeling so sick.

TO HIM:
i hope you;d come. we'll both make things right. i have made mistakes, just like you and for the first time, i am saying sorry to you today.

SH*T! this is me, feeling like almost begging for his attention. i'm so sorry to everyone who knows who i am referring to.. i just found out i can't let him go.

dawdling in my "lost-ness"

whew... it's been quite a long time since this is the only time i have anough time to waste time here.
anyway, last week was quite a blur. dale got angry with me, and i made a lot of people quite mad.
i can't exactly talk about the details online 'coz i know how things like these ruin relationships and reps... hehehehe...

whatever.

a couple of days ago, i felt like an ultimate winner in my personal battle-- vendetta-- against the male species. i made a big macho man cry and sulk and look like a fool in front of everyone. still, i have to count in the fact that i had my share of embarrassment too. but that's beside the point. i just hate it when men make fools of women when in fact, there are more WAY smarter women than dumbass men. yech! why should women end up crying like they lost half of their lives (if not the whole of it) just because they saw their man fondling some lowly slut or twit? i just hate it when i see women crying over some SOB as if they don't know any better. by God, they know a whole lot better. who needs men anyway? they're only good for ego-trips and pampering women. there are even times that they fall short on the latter. but the hell! i could treat men like shit for as long as housewives are plain housewives and some women dream of living in the kitchen, serving her husband submissively hand and foot. shit!

am i ranting or what?

all i really wanted to say earlier was how i felt like i won against the chauvinistic men-babies who brim with nothing but undeserved machismo.

(oh well, with this i could expect seeing myself living out the rest of my life single.. i hope not unhappy, though.)

do i sound bitter, or what?